I’d just dozed off, spreadeagled over the forward berth, Rafiki gently rolling along, the soft gurgle of the bow wave singing me a lullaby just on the other side of the thin hull. Fan whirring, breeze on my skin keeping me cool. Looking forward to a good few hours rest before my watch starts at 11…
Brain asleep but ears still wide awake (a sailors ears never rest), I hear the surge of water under the bow suddenly get louder. The boat accelerates, charging off down a wave, heeling over. Where there was silence on deck before, wind is howling in the rigging. I’m awake in a snap. Some instinct tells me that action is needed, NOW, dumping a load of adrenaline into my blood. We’ve been hit by a squall. A windy one. A sail is flogging wildy outside, a loud, vicious cracking and banging. Help is needed on deck, fast. Glancing at the instrument panel as I dash out I see we have 46 knots of wind. By the time I make it up the steps, only seconds later, it’s well into the fifties. Eva is struggling to roll in the jib – it’s crashing around at the front of the boat and even though it’s already half furled, it needs two of us hauling on the line to bring it in. Instinctively I’ve taken control of the helm with my free hand to bring the boat up into the wind to make the job easier. Now I need to decide which direction steer in. Only seconds ago I was asleep, and now I’m standing in the cockpit just in boardies, wind howling, in the dark, unable to see anything through the lashing rain other than a big white flogging sail. The rest of my senses are now fully awake, each shouting their messages at my brain, which is trying to decide what to do with all the inputs. It’s a bit disorientating. I spin the wheel to starboard to ease off the wind a bit, the main fills, and we’re back on our way.
And then suddenly the wind is gone. Back down to ten knots, just like that. Surreal. We’re left befuzzled. It can’t have been more than sixty seconds overall, from fifteen to fifty and then back down again. It’s strangely quiet. Heavy rain dampens the sea, and it’s not yet had time to become alive again. I spend some time untwisting the genoa sheets and checking all is OK, change into dry shorts and then head back to my bunk. Rafiki cruises onwards through the night.
I’m woken again some time after eleven by a quiet voice. “Chris … Chris … time for your watch”. Eva had to finish a line of knitting before finishing her stint on deck, so I got an extra few minutes’ rest. Bonus.
It took me ages to fall asleep after the squall, running through the action again in my mind, so I can’t have had much sleep. Feeling a bit groggy. It’s cool enough tonight to need a tee shirt, so I fumble in the dark for one that doesn’t feel too salt-encrusted and grab my lifejacket on the way up to the cockpit. We exchange the usual chit-chat between watches;
“No change in the wind, a few clouds overtook us, no rain this time, looks like the sky is clearing. All well. Have a good watch!”
“Thanks. Have a good sleep!”
In a few minutes, I have the boat to myself. We’re rolling along directly downwind like we have been for the past few days, but the sky is now clear. We’re chasing a bright half moon, dead ahead of us. The moon is chasing the sun, now way below the horizon. It’ll just be me and the stars in a couple of hours. Sitting on the cockpit seat, looking aft at the mesmerising waves, I’m struggling to stay awake. Can’t afford to sleep. Must look out for squalls. They sneak up in minutes from over the horizon, big dark clouds, with a mystery package underneath. Sometimes benign, sometimes nasty. Gotta be ready for each one. Just in case. Mustn’t fall asleep. Tired eyes…
Time for some tunes. For a sugar rush I stuff down some dried fruit. Still loads of pawpaw and pineapple left over from Mexico. The others won’t touch it it’s so sweet. For me, it’s perfect at the start of a night watch. I wrap my trusty big headphones over my ears, select a dance set from way back in the day, and hit play.
Sugar finds its way into my bloodstream, tunes are injected straight into my brain. Boom! I’m up and dancing under a huge sky of stars. The night is so clear that I can see them all the way down to the inky black waves on the horizon; a full hemisphere of wonder. The motion of the boat under the sky makes colossal creatures of the night gyrate around me, as I gyrate around the cockpit; Scorpion, Lion, Wolf, Bear, Swan, Dragon, Dolphin – and a load I can’t identify. The lurching deck also adds a random drunken motion to my movements … or maybe that’s the leftovers of the evening’s most excellent Gin & Tonic being flushed out of my system? It was a special one, with ice. It takes a week to make a drink’s worth of ice in our wee cooler.
Flickers of phosphorescence flash down the sides of the boat, ignited by the bow wave. Like tiny little fireflies rushing into the darkness. Every now and then a shooting star whooshes overhead, ending millions of years of interstellar travel with a beautiful blaze of light in the Pacific sky. Everything seems magically in time with the music as I wobble and wiggle insignificantly but enthusiastically.
The half moon grows as it nears the horizon, an orange segment on its back, sinking towards the sea. The reflection on the water almost as bright and colourful as a sunset. The backs of waves all the way to the west catch the last flickers of colour – a cold golden – and then the moon is gone, leaving behind the limited, beautiful, monochromatic palette of a tropical night at sea. It’s become a little darker, but not much – now the milky way splashes over the top of the sky, the southern cross at one end and some bright planet at the other. The light at the top of the mast – our own little star – is scratching haphazard patterns in the blackness as the boat plunges and rolls underneath… the ocean using the boat as a pen to write secret messages in the sky above. Or is it just playing “join the dots” with the stars? I jiggle and jive, soaking it all in.
Rafiki joins in with the tunes. Sails go slack and then boom as they fill with wind, like a drum. Each wave brings a squeak and a creak and a whoosh and a fizz – but I can’t hear most of it. Ihe volume is on max, I’m transported to a magic place by the music and motion. Feet planted motionless on the deck – can’t wake the sleeping crew members in the cabin below – I’m still throwing full-body shapes, the boat moving my legs for me. It calls for a lot of improvisation, moving in a way you can’t do ashore … I’m not going to win any points for style but there’s nobody here to watch! Every now and then the boat makes a big roll and I take a break from waving my hands in the air like I just don’t care to grab something solid, so I don’t end up in a heap on the floor. The movement of my muscles and joints feels so good after days of relative inactivity aboard.
The watch goes too fast, it’s past 3am, and soon Dave is moving around below, preparing for his stint. I was hoping he’d stay asleep and I could keep going for a while. But I need the rest so reluctantly say goodbye to my cosmic dance floor, hand over the watch and head below.
“No change in the wind, no clouds, no rain, the moon went down, not much else to report. All well. Have a good watch!”
“Thanks. Have a good sleep!”










































































